♥ just so you know.. ♥

just so you know..
for whatever happens in the future or even in the present,
you will always be my closest friend ever especially whatever we have gone through for so many freaking years,
but somehow, i cant tell you everything anymore as how i did last time,
maybe,perhaps, times will tell!

and the funniest part of all is i dont even dare to confront with you about this,
guess i am just being another typical susan
pretending like nothing matters but actually deep down inside, i am hurt!

just so you know..
i am NOT okay eventhough i look OKAY at times,
trying hard to forget everything that happens recently and moving on with my life
but somehow, ' i am thinking of "you" eventhough i am with the others'
it sucks and i hate myself for being myself
why cant i just be like a normal person and let everything out instead of keeping everything inside of me?
why cant i just have a big cry and release everything?
why??
i'm tired to pretend like i am OKAY
i seriously wanna cry but i forgot how to as my tears are all dried up..

just so you know..
for whatever you have done to me,
the past and right now
i'll just take it as a lesson and live.learn and grow.
but its kinda sad to see a friendship of 5 years plus can be just ruined just like this..
sigh!


just so you know again..
ONCE ITS BROKEN, IT WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN!